I want that!

I realised that I have too many wants. Of course most of the time I dont express it seriously due to the fact that I like to play around quite a lot. Still,its a way for me to let go of the want for that thing. Weird aint it?For me ,if I was to say I want something out loud,the want would just go away. Maybe because when I hear how ridiculous I sound by wanting it,I dont want it anymore. Of course this only works for stuff that I dont need.

I was told when I was young(dont you dare say anything about this) that theres a difference from the wants and needs. Of course,if I understood it,so should anyone who reads this(if there is any of course). I found myself to be quite simple. I dont need a big house,a big car,a big job(perhaps the reasons for not pushing myself) although I wont mind having them. I was told this morning that I might be a younger version of my dad(holy...I can see my future physical self).*Sigh*.

I know this might sound wrong but for some reason sometimes I actually wanted to be more materialistic,want unnecessary stuff and all that. When I see my siblings I sometimes ask why arent I like that. Of course the reason for asking was because theres a want to feel as if I am of the same breed but it just so happens I'm the odd one out. So, I kinda miss out on getting expensive clothes,cars,a house,laptops and a lot more other stuff(this is of course exaggeration).

I recall a saying that one must appreciate what one has. but if one has nothing,what is there to appreciate?Can I actually appreciate nothing?Sounds like I'm rambling.Better stop.

Faisal