I got a bit upset today when the lyrical casting result came out. Clearly I didn't make it.

It was kinda expected knowing how badly I screwed up during casting, and I don't really do well without practises since I have extremely terrible bad memory.

Still.. it really bothers me when you know that you could do wayy better than that, and you know that you stand a fair chance to be casted in but you just screwed everything up, being lazy (rushing for assignments as usual) and missed rehearsal.

I just can't get over the fact that I blew up the chances that were given. I'm generally not a competitive person (proven with my shitty results), and I'm not trying to be one here, its just disheartening when you don't get something that you've always wanted.

Shyt.. I really wanted that! And there will never be a second chance. Gone.

M.