For some reason i made a commitment to myself to match michelle's post 1 to 1,as in if she does one,i would do one. Never thought she would do another so fast. Anyway,that aint the point of this post,I just want to de-stress myself after processing a rush of information that I agreed not to reveal so i decide to blog(obviously not about what i just found out of course).

anyway,I told my bestfriends before that should I ever breakdown,I want them to literally knock some sense into me. I feel that the time will come some time soon(hopefully not).When i reachied the 21 mark,i honestly believed that i am able to face whatever comes my way. i've been through some messed up stuff in my life but for something so normal to have this type of effect intrigues me. I admit it feels embarrassing (I may have thought too highly of myself before) but I dont really care about that part. what interest me more is how do I go on from here. I heard before that if its broken dont try to fix it,you'll make it worst but is not doing anything any better? At the moment I dare not do anything as i fear that i'll make it worst. No,theres no need to tell me all those boring lines of "what if it makes it better" kinda thing,i know that but the risk is high. I know should the need arises i would have to do what is required of me but i rather that the time wouldnt come.

I'm rambling about something that i cant reveal so this post will be somewhat boring(nothing new there).I just felt like typing,its like smoking,calms me down.again i'm looking out for the word limit so i cant ramble much(which probably is good). I'll do something better than this one soon.

Faisal